Day 107 – Hot Ashes on the Dash

Hot ashes on the dash 

Sometimes it hits skin

The burn is comforting pain

My cares are running thin

And I’m running out of time

To get this chance right

But if it’s all I want

Then I have to try

Solipsism and Restless Sleep

A bed so comfortable and safe, yet it can’t protect from the dreams that attack during the night from time to time. Haunted by the same person each time, nothing can stop the memories in the weakness of sleep.

Am I weak for being so tired? Time and energy are scarce. I tried. I did my best. Honestly. The sun continues to rise each morning following restless attempts at sleep. The sun never lets us down. The light always finds its way back to find us. Though, seeing the light depends greatly on what a person chooses to see. Some fail to feel it even submerged in its radiance. Others can picture it even through months of pure darkness.

The sun never leaves as long as you want her to stay. And that helps with the tiredness a little bit. The theory of Solipsism removes all stress. If everything is only in my head, why worry about the rest? Pretending the dark isn’t there won’t save you from it. Reading about nazis before bed brings dreams of dread. Change your beliefs to match the lifestyle you’d rather live.

I wish there were a monster under my bed or hiding in the dark of my closet. A real beast would be much simpler to silence than the horrors created in my head. Quantico is a lifetime away. I’m only 1 years from 28. We only get one shot and that dream is going to have to wait until my next life. I messed up and will have to find another way to save the world.

The Dream worlds Theory

Our reality that we live each day is only 1 of 3 major realities in existence. In other words, our universe is but 1 of 3. The truth is that 2 other dimensions exist.

The first other dimension is a prosperous one. It’s a world full of everything you, or anyone, has ever wanted. Our other selves are living out our wildest and most joyous fantasies in this utopian universe.

The other, other, dimension is a horrendous one. This is a place filled with terror, misery, and pain. Here, our other selves are living in a literal hell on earth. This is not a place anyone would choose to visit.

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The dimension/reality we live in now is a mixture of the two others. We live in a world that is comprised of both terrible things and wonderful moments. We experience the good side and the bad.

Dreams are the way we connect to these other selves living in the alternate realities. When we experience horrific nightmares we are really glimpsing the life of the other living in the nightmarish universe. Those nights where we wake up in sweats, racing hearts, and relief that it was “only a dream,” we are seeing the darker world in the eyes of our alternate self. Conversely, when we experience pleasant dreams we are seeing through the eyes of our double living in the prosperous dimension. By dreaming, we connect to the alternate self and see into the world of flourishing dreams and heart-warming happiness.

By dreaming, we are connecting to the lighter and darker dimensions of reality. We, in our current world, are stuck in the middle of two extremes. Dreams allow us to peak into the others’ lives.


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A Dream Of End Times

The last remaining humans are living in an old abandoned Walmart. We do not venture outside the warehouse walls. I am here with my pet owl and my mom.

A ginormous figure with a powerful voice comes to us, claiming to be God. He is wise and strong and we all believe him. I see my mother bowing, so I bow. We all bow.

Later I glimpse the figure’s horns secretly by peaking around a corner. I feel a strong vibe of being unsafe in his evil presence.

I grab onto my owl’s feet and he flies upward. We break through the roof of the building and begin our search for the real God.

We fly over the raging ocean at night as flaming debris falls from the sky.


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Dreams of Isolation


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